The first time that I decided it was time to lose weight, I was 15. There was this new and exciting diet that was a no carb diet and guaranteed results in a short while. Well, I was young and naive, and of course I did it! Well, I got amazing results! I finally had the body that I always wanted! I did not have to exercise and only had to follow a diet. It sucked that I could not eat pasta, BUT I could eat chicken and other proteins (which I love), and the meal replacement BARS were AMAZING!
Anyway, after I started dating Mike, I was eating a lot of junk food because that was the easiest thing when we were out. AFTER 3 MONTHS I BALLOONED UP!!! NOBODY TOLD ME THIS WOULD HAPPEN!!! I gained 55 lbs after 8 months of eating this junk food! I was devastated and wanted nothing to do with diets or eating "healthy". So I just completely let myself go!
Then when I was in college, I decided to lose weight again. This time I did it the right way. I ate healthy and exercised! I was feeling great, I lost 20 lbs in 3 months! Then, I felt like I deserved a break and started to cheat AGAIN! FML!!! I fell into the exact same trap I did before...I gained that weight back again! I never really thought about it and moved on!
The next time I dropped 20 lbs was when Mike's brother got married! I did not want to be feel fat or ugly and most importantly I wanted to find a nice dress that fitted me nicely. I began to exercise and eat right and this time Mike started to do it with me so it was a little easier! I lost 20 lbs and found an awesome dress that I LOVE to DEATH! I felt ok ( I was still not where I wanted to be but it was a start). After the wedding I forgot about how good it felt to lose the weight and continued my old crappy ways! Again, I gained all that weight!
FINALLY, on 2010 August 4, I started reflecting on my life as a whole. I was turning 24 and still working as a Security Guard. I want to move on to my career (but I cant unless I am physically fit). I want to get married and someday soon start a family, but I cannot do any of these things until I am settled into my career. I was not feeling very good about myself because I was very overweight, nothing that I wanted to wear fit me! I was not able to really do my job properly because I could not run very fast and I would easily run out of breath! I hated it! I looked at the people around me and a lot of them are fit! My friends are thin, my sister in law is fit and I would yearn for that! I was realizing that I was not breathing very well (even though I quit smoking 2 years ago). So this would really FREAK ME OUT! My sister had a big 15th birthday party and we had a photographer. When I saw the pictures, I freaked out, because I finally saw what other people probably saw and I DID not like it!
I started on the day above and to this day, I am still going strong! My next series of blogs are going to be about the diet and exercise that I have followed for the past 8 months!
*** This is the picture that made me cry and me made me change my filthy ways! (This is really embarrassing!)
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